Thanks for the tips, everybody. We will see how things go when I get my learners for the third time.
EDIT: And it seems to me, I do lack self confidence in alot of stuff. So that is one thing I definately need to work on.
Thanks for the tips, everybody. We will see how things go when I get my learners for the third time.
EDIT: And it seems to me, I do lack self confidence in alot of stuff. So that is one thing I definately need to work on.
Thanks for the banner, Sombolia.
I had another seizure today...my second since end of December, and third in 6 yrs...at 4:00 am. I didn't realize it, but my mom heard me...I have an alert monitor in my room and when I came too I had the worst stomach sickness. Not any ordinary sour stomach...I mean, REALLY sick. My stomach was in knots. I felt like crying but I could barely even move. I just wanted to vomit and vomit. I was scared. Why does life have to be such a bowl of sh&t sometimes???? I've felt like crap all day, and now I can't go riding [horses]!! Because I have a dermatology appointment tommorrow that was supposed to be today 'cept I had that friken seizure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know how much more I can take!!!! I've been taking anti-seizure med, but it doesn't work. So I'm depressed, learning disabled, epileptic, and angry. Oh, thank you for letting me rant. I just feel so angry and discouraged. I know lots of people have it worse, but why do people have to suffer so much?
I have been on anti-seizure medication most of my life. I take tegretol (spelling?). Maybe you should talk to your doctor about different medications to control it. I don't know your complete situation so that might not work. I can barely remember what my seizures were like. It has been a while since I last had one. I remember them being like a phase of complete loss of brain power/cognitive capabilities. For example, I could be holding my shoes right in front of me and be told to put them on and I would say something like "where are my shoes?".
EDIT: I can't believe I forgot to say this. I hope you feel better/get better soon.
Thanks for the banner, Sombolia.
I don't know a cure for seizures, but I can empathize with depression. The vomitting and the illness - I'm living it right now. The best thing you can do is find a sanctuary. I see you love horses, as do I and if you're a fanatic, they are an outlet for your anger and depression. So, taking that away does nothing to help.... but knowing that cannot be amended you need two things.
1 : A good and quiet place for you to be yourself.
2 : Someone to talk to.
I understand my depression differs from yours, greatly. In this case I'm seeking to kill and inflict pain on people and siblings. You are in a state of self anger, and inflecting anger, self doubt, questioning, confusion, and all lost hopes upon yourself. That is the worst thing to do. I would love to talk with you elsewhere - if you'd like to you can contact me on one of my messangers. As for the medication, I'd inform anyone above you. Parents, doctors - the works. They may , in the end, not be able to help. You know talking helps the mind and soul in ways you can't imagine.
Sorry to hear that.
When I was in eighth grade, my shunt (an apparatus that drains fluid from my head to my shunt) dislocated itself or something, and I had to get it replaced. I went in for brain surgery two weeks before a class trip to a theme park I LOVE. I was really, really lookin' forward to going.
But I don't let my hydrocephalus get me down, and you shouldn't let your epilepsy (?) get you down, either.
To Somby: Helpful advice first, thread placement next. The last thing a depressed person needs is someone telling them "hey, add to this thread instead of starting your own".
Somehow I got the feeling someone would say that. Sadly, I have no helpful advice to give, so perhaps pointing her in the direction of people that do is the next best thing.Originally posted by ChildOfThePride
To Somby: Helpful advice first, thread placement next. The last thing a depressed person needs is someone telling them "hey, add to this thread instead of starting your own".
Thanks for everyone's support. I just don't know what to think anymore...I guess I just need to sleep, and I've been seeing a therapist--as "crazy" as that sounds to some people, it helps. I think I just need a good night's sleep and some time to think. I know my problems will never be a closed book, but I feel good, just getting everything out.
And the people that are capable of helping her are able to read this thread as well.Originally posted by Sombolia
Somehow I got the feeling someone would say that. Sadly, I have no helpful advice to give, so perhaps pointing her in the direction of people that do is the next best thing.
If you didn't have any helpful advice to give, then you shouldn't have posted in the thread.
That's all I'll say in the matter.
I'm no doctor, but if you want my advice, which I think would be good to follow, I'd take the magazine of the firearm if it's a slide-action, walk outside, and throw it as far as you can. If it's a revolver, I'd take the chamber and do the same; that'll keep you from doing anything you'd regret. If you don't think you're stable enough to do that, then I'd get as far away from a weapon as posssible. Then, and I'm saying this as a friend, I'd suggest contacting your local emergency services and telling them the situation; there's people that can help, and they know how to handle these issues. I'm asking, and pleading, that you calm down, take a couple deep breaths, and distance yourself from any weapons and get some help. It'll be alright, bud, and it'll all work out, but you gotta be calm and take the right steps. The right steps at this point in time are to get away from the situation and get some help from people who know what they're doing. I'm on MSN if you need me; we can talk and work through this.Originally posted by Utora
i don't what advice i need what direction but I'm screaming for help. I'm going to start killing on the drop of a hat. i can't stop my anger it's going somewhere and there's going to be corpses. I'm hungry I'm tired I'm angry but I'm focused on one point and i wish someone would just tell me what I'm looking for...I need help..the better side of me is admitting it and the darker side is laughing and withdrawing the gun. I hid for a good week and a half....but i can;'t do that i hurts...someone just help. for the love of everything holy..i need some help and i can't find it...
If it's less severe than what I've come to understand thus far, then I'd suggest still taking some time to calm down, and go read a book. Yeah, that sounds dumb, but it'll get your mind off your troubles for a bit. Then I'd suggest talking to someone who's there for you (Again, I'm available on MSN) and going from there. Either way, this is going work out just fine as long as you take the steps to get help; either from a professional or a friend, depending on the severity. We all need a bit of a helping hand sometimes, bud, I know I do right now, and we're here for ya.
and also a person who is down or depressed doesnt want to hear people telling each other off soOriginally posted by ChildOfThePride
And the people that are capable of helping her are able to read this thread as well.
If you didn't have any helpful advice to give, then you shouldn't have posted in the thread.
That's all I'll say in the matter.
stfu plz. Thanks
Sombolia did what was right, that thread is THERE for a reason.
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Enough. Sombolia, I am glad you are trying to help and I beloieve you believe you are doing the right thing, though you could have been a bit more polite about it. However, there is a big difference between needing general advice and being severly ill. Kiara is looking for medical help, not a shoulder to cry on. I believe she may have made a post about this before that I am going to search for, however, I wouldn't feel right myself merging this with general advice unless requested by Kiara. If another mod/Admin feels differently, then so be it.
I don't want to hear anymore on the subject.
Kiara, getting seizures that often can be a sign of brain tumors. If you haven't already, get yourself checked ASAP. Good luck.
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So sorry to Hear this
Must be a big bummer to have this kind of illness.
My brother was epilectic and the Army Had to discharge him (Cant really have a epilectic solider) and the the army was basicly his life. After he got discharged he was depressed as hell and didnt know what to do.
But he started to go into other work instead such as Secrutity and bodygaurds for famous people etc. During the 4 years he was doing this new work he didnt have no more epiletic fits and he proven to the Army he was fit enough to come back in because he grown out of his epilsey and he is now currently plannning to get back into the army.
The reason for me telling this story is a way to say no matter what happens to you, you always will find a way around bad things like what you have. You will become just as sucsesfull as you always wanted to be when you come out at the other end
I really do hope that you you do get better
Thnx babe. ||Merged||Originally posted by Sombolia
ATTN: Community Advice Thread
Sorry to hear this Kiara. I know a lot of people with epilepsy with varying severity (some have up to ten or so seizures a week), so it does suck a lot. I'd definitely suggest getting hold of an epipen, if you can.
Thanks, everyone, for the additional advice. I've only had three seizures in 16 years (that'd be my whole life)--but it's still hard. I had my first one at age eleven, was in the hospital over THANKSGIVING because I fell down and hit my head. Then, this past Christmas (2005 of course), I had another, right after Christmas day . Then, just a day ago, of course, I had another one. Every time I have one I'm as sick as a dog and I feel like my stomach is eating itself. This, combined with my anger management problems (I'm not violent, but I have a fine temper ) and my learning disability, makes me feel kind of down sometime. I know lots of people have had it worse, but I just need a sympathetic ear, maybe even some advice....and I just needed to get it all out.
P.S.: Somby, it's okay you needed\wanted to merge the threads, you were just doing your job.
Sorry, posted this in solicitude by mistake so I had to move it :E
I have a question, well, it's not exactly a question, it's more of an event that happened that I want your opinions on.
Ok what happened was this, it's 21:10 over here. It's the end of the week and I've finished work until Monday, when my supervisor phones my house and asks if I can go into work tomorrow and Sunday and work 9-6:30. I was really pissed off that he actually called me and wanted me to work 7 days, then going back to work on Monday and doing another 5, making 12 days straight. So I just said "No, I've done my work and I've made other plans for the weekend" so he just went "ok, thanks anyway" and hung up. And I was left really annoyed by the fact he rang me, I can't even get away from them in my own house! And I thought it was rude and inconsiderate of him. And I've heard stories that he does it to others too. So do you all think he's being rude or am I just getting all worked up over nothing?
Your getting worked up. As an employee, you have a responcibility to the business. That means being willing to catch openings when othjer people get sick or have emergencies. Your boss has to do whatever it takes to get things working right. Of course, since you did make other plans, there was nothing wrong with saying "no". He can't force you to come in on your days off. Also, your boss has responcibilities as well. If he continues to have such a shortage of workers that he needs to make people work 7 days a week, then he needs to look into hiring more employees. he is solely responcible for the health and safety of you and your co-workers, and has labor laws he has to follow.
For the record, some employees look to pick up extra shift if they want the money, and have nothing better to do. I just jumped from 5 to 6 days a week(part time to full time), at my own request.
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I have to disagree, I don't think you have any responsibility to that company outside of the hours you're scheduled to work. My boss tries to pull that crap with me all the time, and with as much as I care about him, I'll tell him that I'm scheduled when I'm scheduled. Now, if it's a matter of 600 people showing up on a minimum staff day, I'll come in as a personal favor, not because it's my responsibility. I'd be a bit annoyed, personally, because you have a life outside of that career, and you shouldn't be waiting for every beckoned call of your employer. Unless that's in your contract, or job description, such as a doctor, EMT, firefighter, etc...
I didn't make other plans, I'm just not sacrificing my days off for the sake of spending two more days at a hell hole like Primark, and not getting a day off for 12 days.
But that's not my beef, I'm annoyed at the fact that he phoned me at home, if he'd have asked me when I was already at work then it would be a different story. But he phoned me at home when I was relaxing and wanted to get as far away from work as I could, I just found it really rude and inconsiderate.