Bec, I am sorry to hear what you are feeling right now. I'm not sure what to say. I'm surprised you have had bad reactions to telling people your boyfriend lives in America. I have never been afraid to tell people that my then boyfriend lived in Finland. Some people thought it was weird, but I didn't care. I knew our love was real, whether or not they thought a long distance relationship could work really didn't matter to me, because it worked for us, but look at us now, we are married and living together.
It seems to me you are having a really hard time with idea of leaving Australia. I don't blame you, I like the environment and the weather better in the U.S. then Finland. I would rather stay living in the U.S. then move to Finland. (Although don't get me wrong, if Petteri couldn't of moved to the U.S. I would of moved to Finland to be with Petteri) This sounds like to me you are kind of mentioning about moving to the U.S. because you are mentioning you can't make friends in Australia because you will be leaving to the U.S. and that you love Australia and how hard it would be to leave. That doesn't really sounds like you just talking about a vacation or just a visit to the U.S. I don't know what you and Pat have talked about moving, if anything, but you make it sound like you have to be the one to move. I don't want to sound like I am judging you or Pat, I know how hard it is, the idea for someone to move. But I just wonder if Patrick would be happy in Australia. I don't know, I think I am rambling. Sorry. I hope you feel better soon.