I should see a doctor, I think I have a mental problem.
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I should see a doctor, I think I have a mental problem.
From the first post I'd assume you were like me, an insomniac. I take tranqs for that. Speaking of which, I just woke up and they are in my system and i feel like yoy and playdough XDDD
Ahem. ((licks wolf paws.)) In other news.
If you believe you have a mental problem that shows you are not insane but, you want help which is more healthy than you may know. However - seeing a doctor can be good and bad. You want to see a full fledged physchyatrist, NOT aninturn. Oy vay. I saw an inturn and she had to dump me after we got so close because inturns cannot prescribe pills. The full fledged physchyatrist can give you pills, and now I'm happily on lexapro and geodun to calm me issues. Might I also remind you, that pills and doctors will not save you alone comrade. No no. You must be willing yourself to want change and accept the change. This is my issue. I love my problems and know them best and am very comfortable in my sick state. I'm afraid to move on in life. So if you want help Nix, you must truly W A N T IT. Docotrs can help you with that issue too. to a degree. They cannot force your own self will against you. Go to a family doctor first. Get your bloodwork done and ask them for a physchyatrist and they should give you the best. And since you will have your bloodwork one when you see your physchyatrist, you can get right to work. I had to wait for a while because I had to go back and get my bloodwork done. Bleh. Oh yes and, you may want both an inturn AND full fledged physchyatrist. Why? The full fledged only rally spends time to see how the pills are working,spends about 25 mins with you, if you're lucky, and sees you every two to three weeks, and sometimes even a month. I don't like that. An inturn will see you every week for a full hour and literally get into your life. So you need both. One that sees you every week and is like a personal friend, and one that sees you sparatically and gives you the proper medicine you need. One of them alone doesn't get you anywhere.
;)
Now, if you'd ever like to talk Nix, I'm on msn about every day. Or we can talk in MSGS. I'd be willing to help you with everything. I know all too well what it feels like. Six years ago, I said the very same thing you did.
My parents denied me doctors. My parents did not think my issues of any note worthy enough for attention in the medical field. Sadly, six years ago ALL my disorders were fresh and young. Now they are so HUGE, so far GONE, that I need SERIOUS HELP. Not getting help Nix, can do serious damage. I assure you. God what I'd give to go back 6 years ago and really see a doctor.Quote:
I should see a doctor, I think I have a mental problem.
God Bless comrade.
Not all Mental problems are doctor related, meaning you don't have to go see one..Quote:
Originally posted by Phoenix
I should see a doctor, I think I have a mental problem.
It depends on which one you think it is, and how you take it.
It can be a blessing, or it can be a curse :x
However if you think you need someone to talk to, I'd be willing to listen: Fatcatgoeswest@hotmail.com = MSN
or Msg me at Kovu The Lion on here (Duh)
All the best
Kovu
I'm going to see a doctor tomorrow again for my foot *ouch* xX
That's not terribly uncommon. The television is a good stimuli for the human mind. A feeling of great comfort, it is...Quote:
Originally posted by ?nathalie?
Never heard about that TV thing not being good.
It works for me, in a way, that having to focus on the TV makes my eyes heavy so they just close faster, lol.
^ Just don;t become a couch potato ;) D'OH!!
I NEED HELP.
This is the cry of a dying soul. Not physically...emotionally. I"m dying and I'm afraid. In a heated argument from my father these are our words,
You never understood me and my Nazism Dad. I am the greater of two soliders because I can better conrol my anger than you, you who strikes me down when you rage and provokes me onto and battle, and I who remain unwavered by your beatings.
Good lex. You're one step closer to being a Nazi. That's just how they felt. In control when everything else was failing.
It's normal for my dad to taunt me against myself, but these past few nights, I haven't been normal. I'm very cold, sadistic, angry and just don't care. Where am I going? I keep trying to change, and when I look up, I'm twice as worse as when I started begging for help.
It is two years before I leave this home, but each day the abuse grows worse. Days where a table is lifted at me, I'm back handed, lunged at to be beaten and I just miss death in my father's frenzy. He is now hurting my brother. Talking my feelings out to my father only provokes him. I will be respectable, obediant, perfect in his eye but he always tries to rage me onward. Now he hurts another member and I will not stand and idly watch it happen. I'm afraid it will lead to a cold war. A war where in the end I kill my father in defense and go to jail, muting my life. Or a war where he kills my mother...or one of us in a frenzy. No one seems to believe me - he does love us. But when he gets this locked up in a rage ....the man is ballistic. I know what a frenzy is like..and I have learned to tame mine. This man is savage. I do not want to physically go against him. I love him too much. I also fear a whooping. But if it comes to harming another...I will not restrain myself in my acts of violence.
My mother says He's been like this for 30 years he's not coming after you lex. It's ok.
No. I see it in his eye when he rages.
My btoehr and I were being loud at the table, probably obnoxious in my fathers eyes. Instead of saying, Guys knock it off. he stands by the sink with the pizza knife he just used to cut our pizza and washes it off. Then he says, Wanna see how well I throw an axe?
This is why I don't eat. I feel likle I'm in a prison camp crawling to get out. He uses fear by weapons and force to silence us. I cannot get close to him or he will hurt me. I can't be real with him because he verbally abuses me and if I try to defend myself, the right way, he comes after me. I can't stand this muting process, where I sit all day quiety. I'm going mad and all I want is for someone to tell me I"m not crazy. I am like an animal now...behaving on instinct. If I'm quiet, like a robot, or...like I'm dead..everyone is happy and smiling. If I open my mouth, it turns into a rage fest within seconds.
My Nazism is an issue. I clung to it because it was a jacket to wear when I was angry, but now it's blinding everything. Now I want it all, and I'm a step closer every day. And when I say, Dad I know it's not right...help me please..?...he ignores me. Then calls me filth, trash, Nazi waste.
I can't heal if I wanted too. My doctor doesn't understand and I'm going crazy! Watch this post be read and ignored for a week and when somebody finaly adresses it it'll be useless. I need help NOW. I need ADVICE. I can't run. no family member can take me in. Police? Nein! They would lock him up for a little bit. You think he's mad now? Watch him after a week in a cage. My mom won't divorce - finances. All other siblings in truth ignore me because they were treated the same but on a weaker scale because there were soo many of them, my father had multiple targets. Now it's just me, and my younger brother, but mainly me because I"m 16....coming into my own. My mom hides, in the basement, all the time. Has been for 15 years. I cry every day and then sit in silence, not eating, thinking aloud, sharing my joys or happiness because they are muted. It's a living war every second....and silence is how you play...but even then comrades..the enemy grabs you in the dark and throttles you in your sleep! I'm turning into an animal...and I hate it. How far gone will I be, before it's too late. Someone with wisdom..answer me. Answer me soon. Because every second there is a chance for darkness to jump on my back and stab me through the chest.....eevery second we are appraoching a darker hour to his final collapse which in turn...results madness...bloodshed....death. Help.....me......please
Utora, it appears you're the strongest person in your family. You will have to make the decision to either stop his abuse legally, or let him continue his destructive behavior amongst the family. I loathe people whom abuse women and children, mentally or physically ... It's a crime; and it must be stopped!
You must report him...
I agree with Sonique...if he's abusing you and your brother then you must report it. It will be hard and it will be scary for you and or your brother, but you have to do the right thing. Don't let anyone make you feel guilty for defending yourself and your brother. If they try to lay any sort of guilt on you, you tell them straight up "My brother and I were the ones being abused, I have no reason to feel ashamed for doing what I felt I needed to do in order to protect us from his abuse". Abuse is about power, don't get trapped in the game because there's no way out if you let it happen. You and your brother deserve to live in a peaceful household where proper discipline is enforced and you feel safe from physical and emotional harm.
Yes well where does that go? Court? Jail? For how long? When he gets out, I'll wake up with my throat slit. My mom told him they were going to divorce and he said "I'm going to KILL Alexis!" So she decided not too. This is a crafty war. I sleep with a knife and baracade my door, only get to eat at work, walk in silence looking over my shoulder.
I think..I'm letting him get close. I'm going to let him beat the living **** out of me, and turn me into a pulp. Just barely by death. Then...I'll report him. If I'm alive. Then everyone will KNOW he's insane. I won't be blamed or commited for mutinity against my father. I'll let the swine into my areana and win. But if he touches anyone else I'll knife him.
Utora...you deserve better than this, and you know it! :hugs: I also think you need to report him, you and your brother need to live in a place where you can be free, happy, and at peace. Hang in there, pal. I'm here if you need me.
you really can't live like this Alexis...
you need to do something
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Oh lordy lordy lordy...well aren't we all full of **** tonight?
I walk in. Phone call from mom.
Lex? Hi this is mom. Me and you're father are out. We went to dinner and a movie. We're staying at a hotel tonight together. Ben's spending the night at a friends."
Mind games.....
what a manipulative bastard...
(sorry, but...... blah)
Well I"m scared..to death ..I'm weeping my eyes out and hiding in a corner with all the sodding lights on and the doors locked, begging to God for help. My biggest fear...my biggest proboem..is loneliness.....and abandonment and I can't handle this I need somebody here in this house...I need someone so when i see the pople and hear the voices I can tell they're fake because they're someone real to balance it out but now it's all a blurr and i'm fightened and i'm lonesome and everyones away and won't talk to me because i;'m so nutjob out of the bin.....i just want peace..i want so much..i'm so tired...
Unfortunately, he wouldn't go to jail at all if your mom doesn't step in and/or there's a clear signal of abuse... Mental cruelty can impose fines and physical abuse, you can serve jail time of over 5 years in most states. Given the severity, I would contact the Department of Social Services. You cannot let mental games run ramped; and a charade of abuse continually. Stop him.Quote:
Originally posted by Utora
Yes well where does that go? Court? Jail? For how long? When he gets out, I'll wake up with my throat slit. My mom told him they were going to divorce and he said "I'm going to KILL Alexis!" So she decided not too. This is a crafty war. I sleep with a knife and baracade my door, only get to eat at work, walk in silence looking over my shoulder.
I think..I'm letting him get close. I'm going to let him beat the living **** out of me, and turn me into a pulp. Just barely by death. Then...I'll report him. If I'm alive. Then everyone will KNOW he's insane. I won't be blamed or commited for mutinity against my father. I'll let the swine into my areana and win. But if he touches anyone else I'll knife him.
Aww, sorry about that Utora. Mental abuse is a big issues then pyshical abuse.
Well my current problem is, I fail my first semester exam and I have to re-take my first semester and I gotta pay all over again. I'm in the big fight with my father for let me stay in the college and I.... win, but if I fail again for the test I gotta work without experiance and left behind without diploma and degree. Well I escape my father wrath and here's the real problem...... Money @ Finance, Well I'm not a very rich guy can cover up all 600 USD or 18,000 MYR, and best to avoid loan so I won't pay back the money while I work later. My emotional and my mental is quite unstable when I think about it. My sleeping pattern and my appetite is kinda.. bumpy.
Well that's my current problem I need some advice to my foreign friend and what should I do.
Well...on your previous problem I would say that really the only thing for you to do is to report this to someone with authority. If there really is a problem (which there is) you CAN get help that way. That is what those people are for....that is there job, and they too know what to look for. It might seem bleak..but that is your best chance to solve anything. If YOU really want things better..then build up the courage and go through with it.
I understand how you feel with losing someone you love. That doesn't mean it is supposed to hurt less because lots of people feel it...but it means that I do understand your emotional state on it. I know what it feels like when they get someone new and it feels like it is too soon (though in this case I even argued with KtL about it..as well as him lying to me multiple times for absolutely no reason). My best advice here is to either accept that he will just be a friend and do your best....or (what seems to be the case) accept that things have changed..you can't get along and that you need to go in seperate directions. It might be hard...but staying around one another and clinging to things in the past that influence the future wont make things better for either of you.
I can't say I trust him..but it is his problem with how he goes about relationships and why he gets into them. Learn from this situation and recognize it if it happens again. I guess you can only hope that he does the same thing when he goes through the pain of losing someone he loves, or making a mistake and such himself (if he hasnt already done one or both).
If you need any help I am on MSN and all. Plus..we can talk tomorrow if you would like. I am home from work and all. *hugs* Hope this helped...and I hope something brightens up in your world soon.
~Kiva
[SIZE=huge]Two wrongs do not make a right.[/SIZE]
(was directed at anyone and everyone)
i dont want to sound like the admin or anything, but correct me if im wrong
This is community advice, not communtity arguments.
posting problems is fine but it seems to me that a arguement is un-earthing here. May a suggest this carries on in pm?
Just my opinion
You're quite right,Quote:
Originally posted by This land
i dont want to sound like the admin or anything, but correct me if im wrong
This is community advice, not communtity arguments.
posting problems is fine but it seems to me that a arguement is un-earthing here. May a suggest this carries on in pm?
Just my opinion
:) Sorry Lea, :]
Not much I'll say anymore in my defense to what Utora says,
Just leave this thought to you lea,
Belive the lier, Or walk in the light.
Kovu
ITT: INTERNET DRAMA.
Please to be remembering the rules of this board, the fact that we would like to be keeping something around a PG rating. So quit the talking of sending nude pictures and yiffing. In fact, stop talking altogether. This is for advice, not angsting your broken little hearts out; save that for MSN, phones, whatever. Somewhere personal.
I would have to agree with Neph on the argument part and such...and to point out that it isn't very good for either of you to try and make the other look bad in public. Everyone has their issues...if you need help that's fine (which I tried to give before) but...the argument part should be between you two personally.
~Kiva
In other words, stop whinging to us when you can solve the damn problem (or not) between yourselves.
Have a nice day :cheese:
Dyani and Kiva that was completely useless. Neph took care of it and I made a mistake brining my arguments here. I see that..I don't need 8000 people telling me and I'm sorry Neph and everyone else.
We're human for Christ's sake. I'm sorry I brought it here. The. End.
Next time, just keep personal stuff like that off the board.
I doubt it'll do anyone good.
(*edit* some things are just way to personal to put out in the open like that!)
I'm not really interested in what kind of pictures you gave someone else (in this case, the ones you mention) and all that stuff, 'cause it's your business and not mine.
I can imagine what a rough time you must have been through/going through, but even in times like those someone really must try and think twice before putting stuff like that on a public forum.
I don't even know why I'm posting this but:
Has anyone seen ChildOfThePride lately? last thing she told me was, "don't freak out, but I won't be online for a while....." I know, it's probably school or something, but she sent me that on Nov 30 of last year. I haven't seen or talked to her since. Maybe I'm overreacting, but I still keep looking her up on Google for anything she's joined or posted or whatever. So....yeah.
I haven't seen her for a bit. She may have left for a bit because she was p*ssed off at some topic or something. She wasn't banned or anything. She may be moving or something similar, something major that would stop her from visiting Lea. Have you seen her at all visit Lea?
I just have a suggestion for the ATTN thread. Should we move it into The Shadowy Place? Sometimes controversial topics or sensitive issues concerning one of our members come up. Moving this thread into TSP would emphasise caution when reading the topics and concerns raised. What do people, and especially Mods, think about this?
The Shadowy Place is for debate and Commons. This thread is for emotional support; you can't diversify the two. Scar's Lair seems to be the most logistical forum at this time.Quote:
Originally posted by Dyani
I just have a suggestion for the ATTN thread. Should we move it into The Shadowy Place? Sometimes controversial topics or sensitive issues concerning one of our members come up. Moving this thread into TSP would emphasise caution when reading the topics and concerns raised. What do people, and especially Mods, think about this?
I hit some pretty rough times. I dunno guys, I really screwed some stuff up; definitely makes my list of top three regrets in life. I'm not one to get worked up too easily anymore, but I got really hot headed and said and did some things that I really wish I hadn't. I've apologized dozens of times but no one around me wants anything to do with me anymore. The worst part is that I'm completely to blame and there's not a damn thing I can say or do to turn this one around. Guess it's one of those Don't-know-what-you-got-till-it's-gone sorta things, but damn, I dunno what to do now. I guess I feel a bit a bit angry too. I mean, all my friends know that I'll never ask for more than an apology if someone wrongs me, and every single one of them have experienced that at least once with me, but when I screw up, I can't even get the benefit of a doubt. It just feels wrong, ya know? I know an internet forum isn't the best place for support, I don't think I'm looking for advice, but I don't know what I'm looking for and a lot of you guys are my friends. I guess it'll be a lesson in life if nothing else, but I gotta say, some of these lessons really suck.
Sorry to hear that, man. I guess everyone forgives people at different speeds...and some people hold grudges for a while. Maybe if you give them more time they'll be able to move on and forgive you.
Sometimes in life you have to take the high roads, and sometimes you have to take the low ones. Of course, all roads lead to nirvana or a road divine. Lessons can be taught; but they're even harder to learn. The only thing you should regret in life is regret itself; not anything else. Some astrologers believe that we're guided by a star; perhaps by Fate. Or our own accord. We can make plots and points throughout the galaxy. One thing is for sure, you're not alone on your journey.Quote:
Originally posted by Pnt
I hit some pretty rough times. I dunno guys, I really screwed some stuff up; definitely makes my list of top three regrets in life. I know an internet forum isn't the best place for support, I don't think I'm looking for advice, but I don't know what I'm looking for and a lot of you guys are my friends. I guess it'll be a lesson in life if nothing else, but I gotta say, some of these lessons really suck.
Well...I never ask for advice from you all....at least I haven't yet...but I do have something to talk about and see what people think. I will probably have a hard time describing it all..but I will give it my best shot.
Well...as some people know...I used to date someone from the TLK fandom. We broke up a while back...were together for 7 months...met each other 3 times, once for a month straight etc. We were friends for a long while before we were ever together...a year and something or close to 2 years. Well...we broke up for various reasons..she broke up with me I mean.
It took a while, but I adjusted and we still talk. We still both wanted to be friends, and for a while things got better. Then she got a new boyfriend..they got worse..then better again. Then they broke up...and we are still friends. We went through some rough patches. I had some issues with the way she was treating me....much different than how it was before we were together. She didn't treat me like a friend really...didn't say much to me, didn't laugh as much....etc. It is more complex than that..but we kinda had a fight, and got over it..and my perspective on things changed. She told me, she thinks she has been acting this way because she still thinks about me the way she did when we broke up. The reasons she broke up with me are still there...and so she doesnt want to be close much etc. Anyways...I accpeted that..and I learned to change myself and focus on being just friends and sort of drop the lost hopes and all that.
So..I have been doing my best now. I try to keep my thoughts about everything to myself..including what I am about to talk about here. After all the talks...it is better to not involve her in knowing what I really feel..though I would love to tell her it is simply not an option. Me telling her bothers her...stirs up trouble etc. So...I have been trying. Well..it was working fine...but the more time goes by...I don't know if submitting to the circumstances was such a good idea. Before...I was so ready to fight for our relationship to get better..I strived for it..and wanted us to be like we were before. Afterwards...I gave that up in hopes time would heal this. The more time goes by...the more it feels like it won't get better....that by just accepting what I have will allow it to stay where it is. She doesn't have any motivation to change things...she won't ever get closer to me...we won't ever be friends like we were...or even close. Sometimes it seems so bleak..other times it seems brighter....but idk what to do about it. I can't talk to her about it..because it has all been said I feel it would make things worse...but it also feels like no way I act, if I am myself, no efforts I make ever changes anything. It seems like no matter what I do...I can never succeed in making things better...only worse..when I have no intentions of that. I always seem to come across in a negative way that bothers her.
For instance..today, we were talking on the phone after about 2 weeks of not doing so. Well...she seemed like she was feeling alright..so we talked...but I felt more like I was doing all the talking. She didn't say much..but she wasn't in a bad mood or anything. So...we got on the topic of drinking....she has never done it and I haven't and we both were against doing it (before it is legal etc). So...I am used to that being common ground..and being secure in knowing she wouldnt do that. After everything that has happened and us not being as close...I don't feel so sure...so I asked if she was planning on drinking at all at this party she is going to and she said no. So we kept talking about stuff like that..and then she said something like "You know even if someone were to drink and be breaking the law, there is a difference between doing it responsibly and getting fully drunk". Now...I didn't know if she meant that like what it really means...of if it was a pacifying statement. As in...she knows I don't like drinking..and she has had the same view...but she is going to drink so she is trying to seperate herself from the extreme people to make it seem alright. I feel bad thinking that...but the way we have been I wasn't so sure...so I asked and explained and she said she wasn't going to drink...but she was bothered clearly. I never intend to come off like a parent...or bother her. I care about my friends...but it seems like since she doesnt feel so close to me...and it doesn't seem like it is improving...I feel like I have to ask because I get worried. So..then she gets bothered..and it makes me feel like I am just making things worse...but the state of things is what makes me worry in the first place. I am just really confused. We used to be so close...and I want to be again. If it takes time, I have time....but I want to see an improvement. I want to know it is working...to know she still cares and wants it..and all that. I am just so confused. I know it is hard to make things like this work after relationships..but I want this to work. I haven't changed...I am still the person she got along with so well before...but it seems like she just doesn't see me the same and can't...and it is hard to deal with. Any ideas? (sorry for the length)
~Kiva
^Well... it's good you stick to your guns; alcohol... you don't consume it, it consumes you... 'neways, you may be i n something, you can't get back again. From what I can tell, you have some conflicting interests that probably can be set aside. But it doesn't always work that way. You have to get the root of the problem, together; if you per say want a relationship with someone again, both have to be willing. Women are extremely complicated, and men by comparison are mere simpletons. If you really want something to work out; you have to be open and honest, if not.. it won't work out!
You have my sincerity, my friend.
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Originally posted by Pnt
I hit some pretty rough times. I dunno guys, I really screwed some stuff up; definitely makes my list of top three regrets in life. I'm not one to get worked up too easily anymore, but I got really hot headed and said and did some things that I really wish I hadn't. I've apologized dozens of times but no one around me wants anything to do with me anymore. The worst part is that I'm completely to blame and there's not a damn thing I can say or do to turn this one around. Guess it's one of those Don't-know-what-you-got-till-it's-gone sorta things, but damn, I dunno what to do now. I guess I feel a bit a bit angry too. I mean, all my friends know that I'll never ask for more than an apology if someone wrongs me, and every single one of them have experienced that at least once with me, but when I screw up, I can't even get the benefit of a doubt. It just feels wrong, ya know? I know an internet forum isn't the best place for support, I don't think I'm looking for advice, but I don't know what I'm looking for and a lot of you guys are my friends. I guess it'll be a lesson in life if nothing else, but I gotta say, some of these lessons really suck.
You're gonna have a tough time, i won't deny that. I think the only solution now is a little change and time. :hugs: if ya want to vent shoot me an e-mail. you know i'm always around to listen
@Kiva: I honestly don't know what to say or to suggest. Though it does seem like you're having a bit of a hard time with it and I'm sorry for that. Maybe it won't ever be the same, and maybe it just needs more time. But in a situation like this, I don't think you'll know unless the issue resolves or unless you just ask her straight out how she feels about your friendship and all that. I do think that's probably the best idea, ask her about it. I'm sorry I'm not much help, that's all I can think of ... :hugs: best of luck though.
Thanks guys....I'm just going to give it time, but if anyone has any other suggestions or has been in the same situation then that might help. I don't necessariy want her back...since I have accepted that it wouldn't work and we are past that...but I would really like to feel like friends again....the type of friendship where you don't have to wonder if you are really friends...where you just are and know it. That's how it used to be, but now it seems a bit different. I hope something improves soon....because friendship is a two way street.
~Kiva
Hey guys, I made a similar post on the Majilisi; just figured I'd let you know what was up. My mom was recently diagnosed with multiple myeloma, which is a cancer of the plasma cells in her bone marrow. As far as cancers go, it's not a very good one to have. The doctor said that her initial prognosis is very poor and I don't think it's right for me to be spending much time on the internet when my mother is as sick as she is. So yeah, I'm gonna be on even less often than I already am. It sucks, but we can't go back and make things different now, so we just gotta make do with the time we've got, keep looking at the bright side, and cross each bridge as we get to it, ya know? I'll be sure to check in periodically and let you guys know how things are going.
Sorry for this cancer your mom has; I hope she has reviewed any / all treatment/curacion options. I can't stress enough how sick she may get, and I'll pray for her recovery.
:hugs:
I can symapthise with you Pnt. My boyfriend's father has been recently diagnosed with three cancers, one in his neck, ribs and spine. He is not expected to last 6 months.
I wish your mum luck with overcoming cancer and, like Elliot said, is looking at all the options available to her. Experimental treatment might also be an option. I hope she will recover this, cancer is a buggeration of a disease. :hugs: