I should see a doctor, I think I have a mental problem.
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I should see a doctor, I think I have a mental problem.
From the first post I'd assume you were like me, an insomniac. I take tranqs for that. Speaking of which, I just woke up and they are in my system and i feel like yoy and playdough XDDD
Ahem. ((licks wolf paws.)) In other news.
If you believe you have a mental problem that shows you are not insane but, you want help which is more healthy than you may know. However - seeing a doctor can be good and bad. You want to see a full fledged physchyatrist, NOT aninturn. Oy vay. I saw an inturn and she had to dump me after we got so close because inturns cannot prescribe pills. The full fledged physchyatrist can give you pills, and now I'm happily on lexapro and geodun to calm me issues. Might I also remind you, that pills and doctors will not save you alone comrade. No no. You must be willing yourself to want change and accept the change. This is my issue. I love my problems and know them best and am very comfortable in my sick state. I'm afraid to move on in life. So if you want help Nix, you must truly W A N T IT. Docotrs can help you with that issue too. to a degree. They cannot force your own self will against you. Go to a family doctor first. Get your bloodwork done and ask them for a physchyatrist and they should give you the best. And since you will have your bloodwork one when you see your physchyatrist, you can get right to work. I had to wait for a while because I had to go back and get my bloodwork done. Bleh. Oh yes and, you may want both an inturn AND full fledged physchyatrist. Why? The full fledged only rally spends time to see how the pills are working,spends about 25 mins with you, if you're lucky, and sees you every two to three weeks, and sometimes even a month. I don't like that. An inturn will see you every week for a full hour and literally get into your life. So you need both. One that sees you every week and is like a personal friend, and one that sees you sparatically and gives you the proper medicine you need. One of them alone doesn't get you anywhere.
;)
Now, if you'd ever like to talk Nix, I'm on msn about every day. Or we can talk in MSGS. I'd be willing to help you with everything. I know all too well what it feels like. Six years ago, I said the very same thing you did.
My parents denied me doctors. My parents did not think my issues of any note worthy enough for attention in the medical field. Sadly, six years ago ALL my disorders were fresh and young. Now they are so HUGE, so far GONE, that I need SERIOUS HELP. Not getting help Nix, can do serious damage. I assure you. God what I'd give to go back 6 years ago and really see a doctor.Quote:
I should see a doctor, I think I have a mental problem.
God Bless comrade.
Not all Mental problems are doctor related, meaning you don't have to go see one..Quote:
Originally posted by Phoenix
I should see a doctor, I think I have a mental problem.
It depends on which one you think it is, and how you take it.
It can be a blessing, or it can be a curse :x
However if you think you need someone to talk to, I'd be willing to listen: Fatcatgoeswest@hotmail.com = MSN
or Msg me at Kovu The Lion on here (Duh)
All the best
Kovu
I'm going to see a doctor tomorrow again for my foot *ouch* xX
That's not terribly uncommon. The television is a good stimuli for the human mind. A feeling of great comfort, it is...Quote:
Originally posted by ?nathalie?
Never heard about that TV thing not being good.
It works for me, in a way, that having to focus on the TV makes my eyes heavy so they just close faster, lol.
^ Just don;t become a couch potato ;) D'OH!!
I NEED HELP.
This is the cry of a dying soul. Not physically...emotionally. I"m dying and I'm afraid. In a heated argument from my father these are our words,
You never understood me and my Nazism Dad. I am the greater of two soliders because I can better conrol my anger than you, you who strikes me down when you rage and provokes me onto and battle, and I who remain unwavered by your beatings.
Good lex. You're one step closer to being a Nazi. That's just how they felt. In control when everything else was failing.
It's normal for my dad to taunt me against myself, but these past few nights, I haven't been normal. I'm very cold, sadistic, angry and just don't care. Where am I going? I keep trying to change, and when I look up, I'm twice as worse as when I started begging for help.
It is two years before I leave this home, but each day the abuse grows worse. Days where a table is lifted at me, I'm back handed, lunged at to be beaten and I just miss death in my father's frenzy. He is now hurting my brother. Talking my feelings out to my father only provokes him. I will be respectable, obediant, perfect in his eye but he always tries to rage me onward. Now he hurts another member and I will not stand and idly watch it happen. I'm afraid it will lead to a cold war. A war where in the end I kill my father in defense and go to jail, muting my life. Or a war where he kills my mother...or one of us in a frenzy. No one seems to believe me - he does love us. But when he gets this locked up in a rage ....the man is ballistic. I know what a frenzy is like..and I have learned to tame mine. This man is savage. I do not want to physically go against him. I love him too much. I also fear a whooping. But if it comes to harming another...I will not restrain myself in my acts of violence.
My mother says He's been like this for 30 years he's not coming after you lex. It's ok.
No. I see it in his eye when he rages.
My btoehr and I were being loud at the table, probably obnoxious in my fathers eyes. Instead of saying, Guys knock it off. he stands by the sink with the pizza knife he just used to cut our pizza and washes it off. Then he says, Wanna see how well I throw an axe?
This is why I don't eat. I feel likle I'm in a prison camp crawling to get out. He uses fear by weapons and force to silence us. I cannot get close to him or he will hurt me. I can't be real with him because he verbally abuses me and if I try to defend myself, the right way, he comes after me. I can't stand this muting process, where I sit all day quiety. I'm going mad and all I want is for someone to tell me I"m not crazy. I am like an animal now...behaving on instinct. If I'm quiet, like a robot, or...like I'm dead..everyone is happy and smiling. If I open my mouth, it turns into a rage fest within seconds.
My Nazism is an issue. I clung to it because it was a jacket to wear when I was angry, but now it's blinding everything. Now I want it all, and I'm a step closer every day. And when I say, Dad I know it's not right...help me please..?...he ignores me. Then calls me filth, trash, Nazi waste.
I can't heal if I wanted too. My doctor doesn't understand and I'm going crazy! Watch this post be read and ignored for a week and when somebody finaly adresses it it'll be useless. I need help NOW. I need ADVICE. I can't run. no family member can take me in. Police? Nein! They would lock him up for a little bit. You think he's mad now? Watch him after a week in a cage. My mom won't divorce - finances. All other siblings in truth ignore me because they were treated the same but on a weaker scale because there were soo many of them, my father had multiple targets. Now it's just me, and my younger brother, but mainly me because I"m 16....coming into my own. My mom hides, in the basement, all the time. Has been for 15 years. I cry every day and then sit in silence, not eating, thinking aloud, sharing my joys or happiness because they are muted. It's a living war every second....and silence is how you play...but even then comrades..the enemy grabs you in the dark and throttles you in your sleep! I'm turning into an animal...and I hate it. How far gone will I be, before it's too late. Someone with wisdom..answer me. Answer me soon. Because every second there is a chance for darkness to jump on my back and stab me through the chest.....eevery second we are appraoching a darker hour to his final collapse which in turn...results madness...bloodshed....death. Help.....me......please
Utora, it appears you're the strongest person in your family. You will have to make the decision to either stop his abuse legally, or let him continue his destructive behavior amongst the family. I loathe people whom abuse women and children, mentally or physically ... It's a crime; and it must be stopped!
You must report him...
I agree with Sonique...if he's abusing you and your brother then you must report it. It will be hard and it will be scary for you and or your brother, but you have to do the right thing. Don't let anyone make you feel guilty for defending yourself and your brother. If they try to lay any sort of guilt on you, you tell them straight up "My brother and I were the ones being abused, I have no reason to feel ashamed for doing what I felt I needed to do in order to protect us from his abuse". Abuse is about power, don't get trapped in the game because there's no way out if you let it happen. You and your brother deserve to live in a peaceful household where proper discipline is enforced and you feel safe from physical and emotional harm.
Yes well where does that go? Court? Jail? For how long? When he gets out, I'll wake up with my throat slit. My mom told him they were going to divorce and he said "I'm going to KILL Alexis!" So she decided not too. This is a crafty war. I sleep with a knife and baracade my door, only get to eat at work, walk in silence looking over my shoulder.
I think..I'm letting him get close. I'm going to let him beat the living **** out of me, and turn me into a pulp. Just barely by death. Then...I'll report him. If I'm alive. Then everyone will KNOW he's insane. I won't be blamed or commited for mutinity against my father. I'll let the swine into my areana and win. But if he touches anyone else I'll knife him.
Utora...you deserve better than this, and you know it! :hugs: I also think you need to report him, you and your brother need to live in a place where you can be free, happy, and at peace. Hang in there, pal. I'm here if you need me.
you really can't live like this Alexis...
you need to do something
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Oh lordy lordy lordy...well aren't we all full of **** tonight?
I walk in. Phone call from mom.
Lex? Hi this is mom. Me and you're father are out. We went to dinner and a movie. We're staying at a hotel tonight together. Ben's spending the night at a friends."
Mind games.....
what a manipulative bastard...
(sorry, but...... blah)
Well I"m scared..to death ..I'm weeping my eyes out and hiding in a corner with all the sodding lights on and the doors locked, begging to God for help. My biggest fear...my biggest proboem..is loneliness.....and abandonment and I can't handle this I need somebody here in this house...I need someone so when i see the pople and hear the voices I can tell they're fake because they're someone real to balance it out but now it's all a blurr and i'm fightened and i'm lonesome and everyones away and won't talk to me because i;'m so nutjob out of the bin.....i just want peace..i want so much..i'm so tired...
Unfortunately, he wouldn't go to jail at all if your mom doesn't step in and/or there's a clear signal of abuse... Mental cruelty can impose fines and physical abuse, you can serve jail time of over 5 years in most states. Given the severity, I would contact the Department of Social Services. You cannot let mental games run ramped; and a charade of abuse continually. Stop him.Quote:
Originally posted by Utora
Yes well where does that go? Court? Jail? For how long? When he gets out, I'll wake up with my throat slit. My mom told him they were going to divorce and he said "I'm going to KILL Alexis!" So she decided not too. This is a crafty war. I sleep with a knife and baracade my door, only get to eat at work, walk in silence looking over my shoulder.
I think..I'm letting him get close. I'm going to let him beat the living **** out of me, and turn me into a pulp. Just barely by death. Then...I'll report him. If I'm alive. Then everyone will KNOW he's insane. I won't be blamed or commited for mutinity against my father. I'll let the swine into my areana and win. But if he touches anyone else I'll knife him.
Aww, sorry about that Utora. Mental abuse is a big issues then pyshical abuse.
Well my current problem is, I fail my first semester exam and I have to re-take my first semester and I gotta pay all over again. I'm in the big fight with my father for let me stay in the college and I.... win, but if I fail again for the test I gotta work without experiance and left behind without diploma and degree. Well I escape my father wrath and here's the real problem...... Money @ Finance, Well I'm not a very rich guy can cover up all 600 USD or 18,000 MYR, and best to avoid loan so I won't pay back the money while I work later. My emotional and my mental is quite unstable when I think about it. My sleeping pattern and my appetite is kinda.. bumpy.
Well that's my current problem I need some advice to my foreign friend and what should I do.
Well...on your previous problem I would say that really the only thing for you to do is to report this to someone with authority. If there really is a problem (which there is) you CAN get help that way. That is what those people are for....that is there job, and they too know what to look for. It might seem bleak..but that is your best chance to solve anything. If YOU really want things better..then build up the courage and go through with it.
I understand how you feel with losing someone you love. That doesn't mean it is supposed to hurt less because lots of people feel it...but it means that I do understand your emotional state on it. I know what it feels like when they get someone new and it feels like it is too soon (though in this case I even argued with KtL about it..as well as him lying to me multiple times for absolutely no reason). My best advice here is to either accept that he will just be a friend and do your best....or (what seems to be the case) accept that things have changed..you can't get along and that you need to go in seperate directions. It might be hard...but staying around one another and clinging to things in the past that influence the future wont make things better for either of you.
I can't say I trust him..but it is his problem with how he goes about relationships and why he gets into them. Learn from this situation and recognize it if it happens again. I guess you can only hope that he does the same thing when he goes through the pain of losing someone he loves, or making a mistake and such himself (if he hasnt already done one or both).
If you need any help I am on MSN and all. Plus..we can talk tomorrow if you would like. I am home from work and all. *hugs* Hope this helped...and I hope something brightens up in your world soon.
~Kiva
[SIZE=huge]Two wrongs do not make a right.[/SIZE]
(was directed at anyone and everyone)
i dont want to sound like the admin or anything, but correct me if im wrong
This is community advice, not communtity arguments.
posting problems is fine but it seems to me that a arguement is un-earthing here. May a suggest this carries on in pm?
Just my opinion