OMG... I don't know what to say, Stu. that is absoulutly horrible. My condolences to tghe family. May he rest in peace. :tears:
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OMG... I don't know what to say, Stu. that is absoulutly horrible. My condolences to tghe family. May he rest in peace. :tears:
Sorry to hear that, Dude. May he rest in peace.
that`s so sad....May his soul rest in peace..........
Oh man, Stu, dude.. I'm so sorry.. may he rest in peace. I hope you're doing okay, LKS.
As for me.. er.. I dunno. I've had like, this horrible empty feeling. Homesickness, restlessness. Lethargy from time to time. It doesn't really make sense, I've been home this entire time, at home is the only place I even really feel it. I just.. yes. That is all.
Aww, Stu. I already told you yesterday how sorry I was to hear that. I'm glad I helped you--even if it was just a little bit. :hugs: Losing a close friend can be hard, I can imagine and with you going through a lot at the present time, you have my sympathy. *hugs you tight*
RIP J.Goddard aka IceMan.
May he Rest In Peace
To many people passed away this year :\
Like one of my auntie and my PE Teacher :\
:(
Oh my God, Stu ... I'm so sorry :(
:hugs:
Our cat is very sick, she's 14 years old and her condition has deteriorated greatly over the past few days and she's just getting worse. There's not really much we can do for her, can't really afford to take her to the vet and we doubt they could do much anyway. My mum thinks she may have kidney failure but we're not really sure. She's still eating a little but she hasn't gone to the little kitties room, hehe, for a few days. She has lost a great deal of strength and energy and it's harder for her to breath, and we've noticed she's getting lumps under her skin where fluid is gathering, she's got a big one under her neck and her front paws are swollen from fluid as well as on her belly. I'm not sure how much longer she's going to last, though in some respects I just hope she dies sooner, because I can't stand to see her in the pain that she's in. Ultimately it's my brother's decision whether he takes her to the vet, as she's his cat, but he doesn't live with us so it's sort of not so organised. I'd just hate to lose another pet and it's going to be loney when she's gone, we have another cat, but she has a very different and reserved personality so you can't really cuddle her. It's hard to see our cat the way she is, though I'm just glad at the moment that she's able to get some sleep, we lit the fire today and she's keeping warm in front of it. Though it's only brief respite for her. I'm rambling now, but I'm just so worried about her, I know she won't live through this, it's just one of those things you can tell, but it hurts to see her the way she is, I can't have her on my lap either, it must hurt her because she only lays down on the floor now and I can only pet her lightly to try and relax her, though she hardly purrs anymore. Basically, to wrap all that up, thanks to anybody who read through it all, I'm just upset about it and I worry about her, the first thing I've done when I've gotten out of bed or come home over the past couple of days has been to check where she is and see how she's doing, and she's just getting worse.
:hugs: *Hugglesquishes Azerane*
Its horrible to lose a pet like your cat like that. We lost our cat last year, but he didn't deteriorate like yours did. After an accident where he slipped and badly damaged his spine, so he couldn't use his back legs properly, he kept striving for almost a full year until he had to be put down. It was so sad.
I hope she either recovers soon or dies.. its better to go quickly than over a long period of time and all the time suffering. :( My thoughts are with you hunza.
*hugs back*
Thanks Dyani. It was over a month ago that I posted that, and two days later, she was even worse, she could not properly, she couldn't even walk. And although she wanted to eat, she just couldn't. She deteriorated so quickly. We decided to take her to the vet, the vet said she had heart failure, so we put her down. That was the best thing we could do for her, and I'm glad we did it. I miss her, but it was far better to put her down, than to let her live and die in pain.
I'm sorry I never got to post here in time for your Cat Azerane.. and to help you through your problem.. I'm so sorry.. I hope your cat can rest in peace.. and your family is doing alright.. I know the death of a cat, is just the same as losing a family member.. because i've experienced it.. especially when you've had that cat or animal all your life *hugs tight* =( I hope ya'll are doing fine...But I've my own problems... Again..
I don?t know really where to start, other than the feeling that I?m being overcome, and threatened every day. Each day I wake up now and It seems that if I open my eyes, then I will be shot at, it?s just annoying.. My parents have become what I would say as very over protective and over sensitive.. Used to I?d make a mistake say? Forget to put the toilet seat down and it?s fine.. Now I do that and it?s like World War III, I can?t believe how my parents have changed so much in just a short while, But what shocks me the most is my parents sudden dislike in each other, it?s like every time they see each other they are fighting, pushing, literally biting each other to get the other to stay down or get them away from each other.. I?ve now received a total of over fifteen slaps to the face, and a huge red mark on my arm from blood flow from being gone my stepfather grabbed me so hard.. It hurts to say this but I think my parents are going to separate soon.. And that may seem like an easy thing but it?s not in my way of seeing it.. My mother said she?d be willing to live with nothing at all and she would be the happiest person on the planet.. I on the other hand could do that but nothing.. is a lot to worry about? In my bank account I have a total of around $1303.92 last time I checked(ten hours ago) and my brother has around $402.30, My mom around $3023.42? That?s not a lot of money, and my mother being a drop out from college because of breast cancer and the birth of my brother and I, has left her with no degree?s but a High School Degree, and there aren?t many job?s out there that she can do, If It?s physical she can?t do it because of her Chemo Treatment and them having to take out almost all of the muscles in her stomach, so she can?t work like that.. The only option left to her is Wal-Mart, or like Mcdonald?s.. I already worked at McDonald?s before and it?s not a nice place to work at, You get burned easily (I have no fingerprints on my left hand for that reason) and people are annoying there? If something?s wrong, the customer?s complain, and oh my god they are always right.. *Sighs* and I myself work for my stepfather now having quit my job, if He leaves, I have no where to work, and I?d have to support my family(My brother and Mom) for us to even live, that means me dropping out of High School, and my future careers and plans fucked all to hell.
I?m seriously, cluelessly lost. My mom seems to see that the only option is leaving him, but if she leaves him, we have.. No House, No Money, No Car, No Food, Nothing.. He is the only way we HAVE what we have right now, and when he?s gone, so is our Life Insurance, and any Insurance we had, since we based it under his Military Discounts in Insurances and his companies .. Everything is also under his name, the cars, house, insurance, anything of importance to us is from him, and he owns it.. I can tell my mom lives a life of hell, and my brother and I CLEARLY hate and dispise my step-father, If he speaks, it always has a swear word in it, if he wants something he doesn?t ask it He demands it. If he does something wrong, and we point it out, We get beat, and cursed at. If we do something wrong, we are fucked and the world has ended and we are beat more. If we say something wrong we get grounded/beat/sweared at, or a combination of all three and its so annoying.. I?ve now been grounded twice this summer break (Since last Thursday) Because I either forgot to shut my door, Left my music on loud, Or the last time called my Step-father a dumbass. Which he clearly is seeing he stuck a fork in an outlet and electrocuted himself(which Is why I called him that) and another thing being because he NEVER finished high school. He works as a Carpenter, doing Trim in housing, and that was my job, We get a good amount of money a house, well he does anyways. And I?m payed around $8 an hour which is very good I think.. Better than McDonalds gave me, and another thing, without him we have like lol as I?ve said nothing :\...and this is where I?ll be seriously honest I can?t live without my friends online, and this Forumed Community, I?ve tried going without a week and have seriously broke down with not being able to talk to people, a few I?d like to point out being SimbaTheLion, Pntball248, and LunarCat most especially. These people are my life, and so are the rest of my friends, My life is Online, My life is this Computer, and my life is Virtual, and without it.. I have no Life. And if my Mom leaves, I have lost my life forever, she told me we would never be able to afford Internet, and anyways, I?d have to leave my laptop.. her plans is living in a homeless shelter until we can build up money or something, I don?t really know what she?s doing but I?ve told her to please stay and think about what she?s doing.. My mom?s very very reckless and has a very good judgement, but when she?s pissed off anything could happen and with that reason I?m scared she might make a mistake and screw herself over for a second time, and I?m just.. Worried because I don?t know if I could support my family(That of my brother and Mom) By myself from working at McDonalds or some join I could go in once I dropped out of High School, I?m seriously on the edge right now of Life and Death. I?ve found Death would bring me peace from all these worries, and I wouldn?t have to do anything or see anything that my Mom is thinking. But with death it brings misery to others and with that thought on my mind it scares, and worries me? I?m just.. so Lost it?s not funny
Right now, Im? sitting in a Holiday Inn, Typing this up in word document, because well Lea can?t keep loaded from this crappy internet and it flips back and forths.. If you don?t believe me, ask Nathalie to check the IP?s of my last posts, and this one.. I don?t know what I?m really going to do My Mom has left the house with my brother and I, and my step-father is at home and he has told my mom that when we come back to the house, nothing will be there, and he will not be there, and there will be no money in his bank account, or my mom?s which is really going to **** us over, he?s taking away EVERYTHING. I?ve called my stepdad about 5 times now and begged him to stay, pleading for forgiveness of mine, my brothers, and mom?s actions, and he?s done nothing but say ?I?m sorry, I just can?t? He tells me all the time ?I Love you, I just don?t know how to show it right?, and ?I love you, But I don?t love this Bullshit that this family gives me? When really?All we ever do is kiss his ***.. I wish this all would just end but I just don?t see it happening any time soon, I?ve told some friends about my problems and none have been able to give me a solution but ?Good luck? or ?it?ll be fine? and its NOT helping me a bit?I?ve been crying for the last 30 minutes as I type this up, throwing my feelings into words on a computer.. As I?ve no one else to tell this to offline?Most of you have noticed I act totally different on MSN than I do on Lea for the reason being, I AM a Dominant being, and I AM a Male, and I AM a Leader, I?m the Pack Wolf to some, People look up to me, and People depend on me..If I show weakness then I?m screwed because people will see me differently than what I am. In all honesty this all meaning, if I tell my parents(Who think I have a perfect life, and they see me as strong willed and loving) that I?m having problems with them, or tell them how I feel they will think I?m weak, Small.. And I can?t have that happen, I am a Overpassed upon my family, I make commands, people follow them(At Work not at home.. Parents ruling is first) People depend on me, so I do things.. I just don?t know what to do because of that, I?m not the submissive type when it comes online.. if people want something from me, they either ask nicely, or fight me for it. And I?m not to nice when I get into a fight as some have seen Online? I?ve been hiding myself, and these feelings from my friends and family online, until now that I?ve had to come out and tell this to people.. I find hiding it is almost nearly impossible now.. and not only am I going to be a bother amoung people, but I?m typing up something that is so freaking huge and people are reading it,..which is making me feel worse, and making me wonder if I should even post this.. *Sighs* I?m just so?Depressed, I don?t think anyone could honestly feel as bad as I do right now, but I?m sure someone out there in the world feels a lot worse than I do,
Right now I am like this far from breaking down
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I?m just very unstable, right now.. One thing said wrong to me, just ?stupid? could set me off, and I?d never be able to come online ever again I know it sounds wack but that?s just the way I feel.. And.. Honestly I don?t care.. For the past few hours.. I?ve had one thought on my mind, and I don?t? even know if I should be telling you guys.. But I?m saying it.. People probably know.. ?What is going to happen to Lunar and I?.. Whatever I do.. Whatever I say.. Whenever I breathe.. Whenever I blink.. I have that thought and many other?s about her.. My life is honestly devoted to making her happy right now, and to make sure she?s happy, and that nothing goes wrong.. And more importantly? Being there when she needs me.. I honestly stay up to around 3 am every night, just incase she comes on and has a problem I will be there, and I am there 24/7 on this computer to make sure I can hold her if need be. Though this is the internet.. Words can reach across it.. not so much as Actions.. But I hope that will change, some how I hope I can be there, and give her whatever she dreamed of having when she was young, or right now.
and with all else aside, all this crap.. My life?s been fine I guess? Just normal.. I?m sorry for once again filling Lea with my mourning.. But I just had to get it out.. I?m sorry Lea, I love each and every one of you, Thank you so much for being one?s that I can call friends.. Thank you so so very much..
~KtL
Sorry to hear that, dude. If your parents divorce your Mom will be entitled to some of the possesions...usually half. Your step-father might have to pay child support...I'm not too sure since he is your step father. But he will have to split some of the wealth. It may not be enough to support you all, but it'll help. Sometimes you don't even need to be married...if you are living with a woman and you support her for a period of time, she may be entitled to a settlement in the case of a relationship ending.
I'm sorry to hear about your cat, Azerane...pets are family, too.
Ktl, dude.. i don`t know what to say..it just seems so hard for you.. well if you anyone to talk to i can help.. *hugs..*
I'd just like to ask all of you to pray for a young soul that departed this world today.
He was between the age of 14 and 15 and was the grandson of one of my mom's closest friends and one of my brother's friends.
It happened sometime today, or yesterday in Kuala Lampur, Malaysia I believe. He was there with a study group that traveled to the country annually.
He was up on a minaret (the tallest tower in a mosque) where he'd decided to take pictures. As he was climbing down a ladder, he slipped and fell headfirst and I'm guessing he died instantly.
Please pray for him everyone, in any way you can. He was a young, well mannered, and well educated boy.
May he rest in peace and may God protect his soul.
my prayer's go out to the adolescent male, as does my families, I'm sorry to hear this La Reina *Hugs* If he was close to you, keep him in your heart, and his presense will never leave you
~KtL
Sorry to hear that, La Reina...my prayers go out to him.
may he rest in peace....
keep this short and simple, lots dont care. Lots don't like to read so i'll just state it clearly:
Going through a lot of stress now, a lot on my mind, pretty much scaried of everything now, Dunno where my life's heading other than the other side of the battle field.
Kovu
I wish you the best in your stress relieving, and everything you're going through. You're extremely strong, I know you can do it. I'm here to listen if you want to talk.
I'm sorry to hear that Kove, and I reall wish I was there to be with you and help you through your troubles. I think of you everyday. ...Things can only get better Kove. ^^ ♥
As for myself..it's been prooven I'm skitzaphranic and bipolar. And other than having my past harassed, I'm gunna go. Where? I don't know. I just sit here every day. Death is a good friend sometimes. I might just sleep for a long time. I wish too much sleeping could kill you! XD
:lol:
but goodbye. Someday this madness may make sense comrades. ^^ But for now I go to a battlefield where only I can go, and no other.
Paka.
Utora Don't do anything rash, all I can get from this post is that it seems you may leave Lea, or the internet, i'm not to sure but from your signature I guess you're leaving, Please talk to me before you go and do something off the wall or completely idiotic.
Thanks, I'll talk to you soon on e-mail or something,
Kovu
I kinda know what you meen. last november I was almost killed in my car twice in three days! first a deer jumped infront of me, then a log came through my windsheild and missed my head by inches! Here's a pic.
http://i103.photobucket.com/albums/m...Neardeath1.jpg
omg, your car looks worse than what my car did after when the windows where broken ... However I wasn't in the car by then, and it wasn't really serious but anyway Oo
For KtL, I read all your long post, everything, and I really could see how your life is in front of my eyes, or at least in my mind, how your step father is doing all that to you, and how your mum feels like, and just everything, I'm so sorry to hear about it all *is shocked* ... I'm really speechless, what you wrote is like something that only happens in movies ... I wish I could do something for you, but I kinda know there's nothing ... but anyway, I've been having some of your problems myself, I know what you're speaking about, and well ... the only I can say and help you with, is probably that I'll listen if you wanna talk, but then I think yo have more closer friends to turn to so ... Still, I'll pray for your life to be better and that nothing will happen between you and Lunar now ...
now that is some PROPER Final Destination 2 **** :DQuote:
Originally posted by Kiron Strife
I kinda know what you meen. last november I was almost killed in my car twice in three days! first a deer jumped infront of me, then a log came through my windsheild and missed my head by inches! Here's a pic.
http://i103.photobucket.com/albums/m...Neardeath1.jpg
Has anyone talked to Sombolia recently? I'm just wondering if she's alright because I noticed she hasn't posted since late august... that was three months ago and she used to post regularly. I guess her life could be pretty busy at the moment but you never know.
'^Not really recently, but I've seen Sombolia pop in a time or another. She may be busy with coursework; may try and contact her though. Very thoughtful of you love...
= )
I'm worried about my dad. A few weeks ago he had a routine blood test and it was found that his white blood cell count was four times above normal, and last Thursday we learned he has CLL-type leukemia. The average lifetime expectancy is 6 years, although some people live with it for decades and never show any symptoms. It has affected us all, but especially my mom. I feel so bad for her, because she has lost almost everyone on her side of the family, most recently her mom, and she doesn't know how she will make it without Dad.
I'm also worried about my sister's dog Champ. He is a sheltie, rambunctious and playful. Well, today I came home and found out from my mom that he was having seizures, and that she took him to the vet. My sister has been crying ever since it happened, and my dad just came over and said for me to spend some time with him if I want to, because the vet said he has a 25% chance of making it through the night.
Sorry to hear your dad has lymphocytic cancer, 2 Die FR. However, there are treatments and medicants to help out... . I hope that it doesn't progress any further.
Poor Champ, hopefully the lad will make it through the night.
-Sonique :hugs:
Oh no.. that's awful 2 Die FR, I'm really sorry to hear that. I really hope your dad is one of the lucky ones. Also I'm sorry about Champ as well... I've seen a dog have seizures before... and it's so horrid to watch, it makes me feel ill... I hope he makes it through.
I haven't spoken to you in ages, buddy. I am so sorry to hear of your fathers cancer. My mother survived cancer last year, so I have faith in your father.
It's got to be unbearable to lose a dog at the same time. Think of it thisway, though: If your dad does die, maybe the dogs death was a way for your father to have a companion in the great beyond until you all join him. Good luck, 2DF.
Wasn't sure if I'd ever hear from you again, Roq. =)
Actually, the outlook is much more positive today. Champ was taken a different vet today, and he was found to be a-ok. :) He is barking at the neighbors again, which means he must be back to normal ;) Apparently, the place he was taken to before, that said he had a 25% chance of living if we took him home - it seems that it was just a scam to cheat us out of money. They would have charged us $500 to $700 just to take a blood test, and $2,000 if they thought they needed to do surgery. We didn't even know if Champ really had anything wrong that would validate that kind of treatment, so our response was "thanks but no thanks." The vet today said he couldn't believe they actually told us that. Imagine - trying to cheat us out of that kind of money, if we thought it was in the best interest for our dog's sake! You can buy new dogs with that kind of money, I mean, I know that sounds cruel, but really...
And for my dad, he just went on a camping trip, ironically enough, so he's just fine too for the time being. His blood cell count will be monitored from time to time to make sure it doesn't fluctuate too much. It's too early to diagnose anything, because it might do more bad than good. So all we can do is wait. And pray.
Heh, in your place, I'd sue the first vet for blatant malpractice. people like that give all people who care for animals bad names.:evilgrin:
I'm so glad to hear that your father is doing well.
It's good to hear that things are going better, 2 Die FR...:cheese:
I'm going through a bit of a rough spot. One of the hardest things in the world is when you realize that you just don't know that guy/gal you've hung out with for years. One day, they do somthing that shocks the fur off of you, and makes you wish you didn't know them. :tears:
A group of my freinds, including my lifelong best freind, Josh,
were having our weekly poker game. If it weren't for other plans I
had, I would have been there to. I was lucky I wasn't. These games
always involve heavy drinking and pot smoking, that I don't partake
in. Normally, there is no problems, as none of these guys are violent
when intoxicated. This Saturday was different. From what I was told,
Josh's brother, Justin, was joking around, and through a pulled punch
at Josh's shoulder, like guys do. Then Josh, with no provocation, got
up and socked Justin in the jaw with a punch that would have made Scar wince. Justin suffered a severly fractured jaw, which will need
to be wired shut for at least a month, and Josh may be on his way to
jail with charges of "Assault while intoxicated", and they may all
get nailed with drug cahrges. What really scares me is that if I had gone to that game instead of my nephews birthday party, I may have been taken into custody myself for the drugs around me. No more drinking games for me.
You think you know a person, then you realize that you don't really know anybody though-and-through but yourself...
Really sorry to hear this man :(
This is awful, i really do thank god that you are ok.
Sorry to hear about your mates, i dont know what your opinioin on your mates are at the moment but for me, i hope they are ok. When you are drunk etc. you do things that you know yourself you wouldnt ever do, so i hope they will come out ok ^^
Talk to me on msn if you are feeling down man ^^. Landy is here :)
Actually, you reminded me that I forgot the worst part. I don't think the beer was what caused this. Even after he sobered up, Josh refused to apologize to Justin, saying (I apologize for the language, but this is a direct quote) "**** happens".
There is somthing more sinister involved here. Josh is always very serious and deep, not much of a joker or goofer. I think he suffers from manic-depression, but won't seek help. And his parent's intake of beer and drugs are just as bad as the kids,(The father is the head janitor in the local school system, and the mother is a district manager for CVS Corp., so can't really tell unless you know them well.) so he could never turn to them.
Yes, stuff happens. Like sothing accidently breaking, or sombody slipping and falling. However, caving sombodies face in is not stuff just happening. That is what happens when you have probelms you won't tell anybody about, wind up depressed, put WAY to much alcahole and drugs in your body, then blow up. It gets your loved ones hurt both physically, mentally, and emotionally. It get's you put behind bars. And it makes a lot of people lose trust in you.
And sometimes you don't even know that because a person is a person, and with that person comes a personality, and those things can change so quickly,Quote:
Originally posted by Roquivo
then you realize that you don't really know anybody though-and-through but yourself...
I'm sorry to hear about your friends and hope they are okay, but I'm more so over glad that you chose to not go to that poker game thing, and better now knowing that you're probably not going to do it again :3 But stuff like that can really screw your life over big time, I'm glad to hear you never did any of that stuff either :(
I hope your friends are alright Roq, and I hope you start feeling a lot better,
Just try to keep a positive outlook on life, when you get down, Go outside, take a breath of air, and think about everythign you've ever done and how it affects the world, and take in the small things of life that may not seem so important, Like the dirt on the ground, the flowers, tree's, and insects, all play an important part of life that we don't really know about, and thinking about that makes me laugh a bit as if people knew more about em, so give it a try buddy, and remember,
A little you time is better than a lot of them time x)
Just a quote my mom used to tell me, meaning its better to stay by yourself sometimes than being with others because only you can work out your problems sometimes.. I guess..
But if you need anyone to talk to or anyone to chat, or need advice from, I'm here to hold your paw, offer a shoulder to cry on, and give leg or arm for ya buddy, I'll always be here for you Roq :) I hope you start feeling so much better buddy, because if anyone, You deserve it.
Sorry to hear about the incident with your friends, Roquivo. that's why I don't like to be around people when they drink too much. Pot makes people peaceful and mellow where as people can get violent when drunk. Anyways, I hope they can put this incident behind them and make amends.
Right, Josh finally broke down, and apologized. When he finally started to feel bad, he cried for hours. We think that his intoxication blacked out his memory of the exact moment, and without that, he didn't want to believe he was capable of such actions. Justin has had two operations, and his mouth is held together with wires as the bones heel. he is doing good.
No charges are being pressed against Josh, so I hope he realizes that he is being given a second chance, and is more careful about his alchole intake.
I wouldn't know how Pot actually makes a person feel, as I've never tried it, however, I have never seen much of a personality change in those people who have smoked it around me. It just makes them cough a lot, which is one of the reasons I avoid it. I am a vocalist, and need my throat in working order.Quote:
Pot makes people peaceful and mellow where as people can get violent when drunk.