Aurelian
March 9th, 2016, 07:44 AM
Hope this doesn't come off to sappy...
I don't want to get into it too much, but the last 3-4 months of my life have been Hell. I have come to realize a lot of things about myself and people I called "friends" that are not pleasent to know.
I have to accept that I am not compatable with people in general. My combination of Asperger's Syndrome, Depression, OCD, Severe Social Anxiouty, and Emotional Imbalance Disorder is an incredibly toxic cocktail. I have realized that all my life, people have lied to me, pretending to like me and understand me, so not to hurt my feelings, when in reality, they are plain uncomfortable around me and wish they didn't have to deal with.
I can happily say that, although I am not very active here anymore (and not many are anyway), Lea has been the complete opposite since day one. I have always felt accepted, respected, and loved here. You guys know who I am, know about my issues and my breakdowns, and still treat me like a human being. You show me love, but are also not afraid to be honest when I need you to be.
One individual in particular has been my closest online friend for 12+ years now. He has always been there for me, ready to listen. Anytime I need him, I know I can reach out, and he is there. Knowing my financial situation, he occasionally surprises me with little gifts, which is always a nice uprise. He gives me advice, tells jokes to make me laugh when I am feeling down, and helped me though many rough times. He is also the guy who originally brought we to Lea when Fuzzy's historic "King of Pride Rock" forums shut down. I can honestly say that if it weren't for him, I'd have given up on the internet LONG ago.
This individual is the only person not born to my mother who I call me brother, and he is Guntur/Fendi. Fendi, there isn't enough text on the entire internet for me to express my gratitude for your friendship. You have been a lifeline to me, and I would trust you with my life. I love you, man.
I don't want to get into it too much, but the last 3-4 months of my life have been Hell. I have come to realize a lot of things about myself and people I called "friends" that are not pleasent to know.
I have to accept that I am not compatable with people in general. My combination of Asperger's Syndrome, Depression, OCD, Severe Social Anxiouty, and Emotional Imbalance Disorder is an incredibly toxic cocktail. I have realized that all my life, people have lied to me, pretending to like me and understand me, so not to hurt my feelings, when in reality, they are plain uncomfortable around me and wish they didn't have to deal with.
I can happily say that, although I am not very active here anymore (and not many are anyway), Lea has been the complete opposite since day one. I have always felt accepted, respected, and loved here. You guys know who I am, know about my issues and my breakdowns, and still treat me like a human being. You show me love, but are also not afraid to be honest when I need you to be.
One individual in particular has been my closest online friend for 12+ years now. He has always been there for me, ready to listen. Anytime I need him, I know I can reach out, and he is there. Knowing my financial situation, he occasionally surprises me with little gifts, which is always a nice uprise. He gives me advice, tells jokes to make me laugh when I am feeling down, and helped me though many rough times. He is also the guy who originally brought we to Lea when Fuzzy's historic "King of Pride Rock" forums shut down. I can honestly say that if it weren't for him, I'd have given up on the internet LONG ago.
This individual is the only person not born to my mother who I call me brother, and he is Guntur/Fendi. Fendi, there isn't enough text on the entire internet for me to express my gratitude for your friendship. You have been a lifeline to me, and I would trust you with my life. I love you, man.